finally met junz todae at smu.
got lost in e campus in frantic attempt ta find food haven.
was gg ta ask dis approachable backview fer directions
when i saw tt it's may.
as in may`the green badge band major!
yikes..
was wearg stnix shirt she looked happy ta see me
or so i presume? ahahahas.
sorry dears i have NO SHIRTS!
fer gdness's sake il koped fr my sis soon.
tt's if i can surpass her tyranny.
saw many other grey badge ppl dere as well.
n im fascinated.
n envious..
sighs i hpe il get ta go dere,
but circumstances are proving otherwise.
wad the! x(
had had a fair bit of STUDYING jusnw
amongst a grp of uncles.
a gathering of a bunch of smu lecturers
tokg abt business opportunities (erms i dint mean ta eavesdrop)
n deres dis old man at e other table,
who started tokg ta us abt dialects n languages.
a real talented linguist i must say.
heartstrings kinda sagged when we saw him
sitg dere stoning away
while his son or grandson(?) was busy wrkg on e laptop.
so lonely n poor thg..
poor thanewalked ta smu ta meet us fer dinner.
i was starvg lk hell by den.
yummilicious dinner in e open wif softly-lit unscented candlelamps
on e table.
how cosy.
n romantic?
ahahs but not when dere's mosquitoes lurkg ard
aiming at only e FOOT?!?!
n children running all abt mkg quite a din.
not ta mention thane whining away fr his
supposedly "damn hot" indian food.
but nice chatg session dere--got updated on so much tt has happened.
okaes anywae,
right now ive damnit ALOT of
FEASIBLE ideas fer ahems success-mkg.
craps fr adam khoo's talk was rather inspiring.
was full of respect fer dis one throughtout his entire talk,
right up til he concluded,
walked dwn e aisle,
ta e back of the audi,
n STRAIGHT towards jaen yoew.
@%#^*&^@@*&$
there goes mie little admiration fer him.
gone!
the twosome's been friends fer almost a decade?
since a stupid chinese camp in nus.
how horrid!
birds of e same feathers flock tog.
>>he's yoew's fren,
so CANT BE A GD PERSON THEN.
anyhows, im gna start my plans lk s o o n.
gta wrk hard
n buy THAT apartment.
expand THAT much
n mk sure my fam n frens wil hav THAT kinda life as well.
whooooooaaaa wad a dream.
*yunx applauds vigorously fer herself*
kaes.
announcements.
uploaded more photos fr -=cj=-
n cel's bdae as well.
e lunch at cine pasta n at night at sos.
rare shots.
mar n cind >> yer drunk states r featured in dere. O_O x)))))
**im stil sore abt it.
quit actg lk we OWE u.
aint our fault tt ure in such miserable plight.
want sth so badly,
den u jolly well go earn it yerself.
ive no sympathy wadsoever fer e emotionally weak.
if it's all jus TIME tt u want,
den go buy a dog cat mouse whateverrrrr.
chain it ta u 24\7
THERE u go~
dun let me hear u complain again.
i will screamm at u.
@ 12:39:00 AM
got hme fr SOS.
had fun wif
cind mar char lala yan caroline cel xuez n all ~
my head's spinning nw
feels lk fck mans.
but no wayyyy am i missing nxt fri's no way..
even if SOMEBODY's out ta damage plans again,
no way r u gna get yer way fcker.
had so much fun jusnw
but a certain possessive freak has gotta
spoil it all jus when we'r gg hme..
WAD THE HELL?!?!
&*&^&*&^^$&&^&&^^^******^&
go fck yerself or sth.
dere. the wall.
stop being so possessive
n selfish u SELISSH idiot.
MUZ U MAKE HER SO UNHAPPY
DEN UL FCK OFF?
oh mans. u got yer way asshole.
if THAT"S wad u want
uve got it.
uve got her all crying feru.
EVERYTIME SHES ON CLOUD NINE U JUSTTTTTTTTTTTT
HAVE TO COME IN N TELL HER STH UPSETG
N GET HER ALL DAMPENED RIGHTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
FUCK YOU!!!!!!
URE JUS A BLOODY BOYFRIEND
COME N GO.
FER A FEW MONTHS YA HEAR ME?
N STOP RESTRICTG HER FROM SPENDG TIME WIF US.
FINE YA SAY TT U DINT BUT EVERYTIME SHES OUT WIF US
E NEXT WE KNEW >>> THERE YU ARE FCKG ANGRY WIF HER
WADS YER P R O B L E M !
ALL I WANT IS FER HER TA BE HAPPY
N ALL U NOE DO E WHOLE DAE
IS MAKING HER UPSET.
CAN U FUCKING STOP.
I AM SO FCKG ANNOYED WIF U.
ASS.
JUS MK HER HAPPY WILL YA?
STOP DOING WAD U DO BEST.
N STOP BEING SO SELFISH.
GO CLUB ALL U WANT
SHE GLLLAAADDDLLLLY LET U.
SO DUN RESTRICT HER FR GOG TOO
WADS WRONG WIF U ANYWAE
INSECURE OR WADS
UR RLI SELFISH U NOE
SHE WAS HAVG SO MUCH FUN
N >>>T H E N <<< U HAV TA SAY THGS LK TT.
OH FINE IF U LK TA PLAY VICTIM
DEN GO AHEAD.
HELLP UR FCKG DATING AN IJ GIRL
DERES NO WAY U CAN EXPECT HER TA
NEGLECT HER FRENS LK NO WAY DUN U GET IT.
LIVE WITH IT.
N I HOPE UL GROW UP SOON.
BLOOGY HELL MY EHAD'S SPINNING.
IM OUTTA DIS SUCKY PLACE.
Friday, October 31, 2003 @ 8:31:00 PM
x)
happie burfdae celeste!! skl was CRAP todae.
only had lk 2 hrs of pw block
n i kena scolded by jaen yoew cos i was laughg awae?
&*%&*(*(&^&^
tmd.
anyways took lotsa photos
shall upload it soon.
went cine pasta aft skl
ta celebrate cel's bdae
wif yan lala meiting yup sera n obviously cel.
yummilicious food!
yeayYYYy.
hoping dwn ta sos ltr
but not ta club i hopeeee.....
jus stayg fer awhile cos it's cel's bdae ahahs.
shikes i hpe it'll be fun..
dun rli feel lk clubg nwadaes.
n HOPE tt my dad wun wif me hell when i get hme..hmmx
Tuesday, October 28, 2003 @ 11:45:00 PM
towning wif lala cind n jiamie todae.
wnt taka ta find yan!
x))))
so happie ta see her
but tt longggg hug ended wif e supervisor's advancg glares.
ahahahs dun care him!
hpe she din get a big dressg dwn though.
im much much better todae.
had much fun in town actg retarded
n all~
outg dint exclude embarrasg scenarios as usual.
dis shop at heeren (heerenS, yan?) had it's glass panels drawn.
lala happily asked cindy ta guess which one's e door
n our little one gleefully pointed n there oh,
four of us blatantly sauntered in
only ta meet face ta face wif dis rather jappy-lookg guy
tellg us tt e shop's "closed at e moment"
geee!
and there were at least ^ more other similar lookg guys in e shop
all staring at us!
caught a glimpse of a few escaped amused expressions.
EMBARRASING!
junz >> love ya dear. ya are so encouraging i dun feel so bad alr~ thx dear. wud stil b feelg rather dejected if not fer u. lookg forward ta a whole chain of study plans wif u kaes! thk tkg subs not so bad aft all. at least dere's one thg ta look forward to nw. miss ya though it's only one dae. pop my head inside the lib n u werent dere. !!!!. but its okaes il b seeing u soon! yikes! x))))))
cindy >> yeas feel as though we haven been spendg enuff time tog too. those far fr sufficient meet-ups are unsatisfactory. too little time spent seeing u wail n den jump up n dwn all agitated by my brilliant suanings. PLUS i found a new hobby. hped u njoy me spittg saliva on u! *ploots* x)
Monday, October 27, 2003 @ 11:51:00 PM
got baq results todae.
-overclouded-
sumore yan dint come ta skl.
miss her lk fck.
how am i going ta surviveeeee tomorooooo.
went celeste's hse aft sch.
took photos n uploaded dem all.
look damn shagged mans.
oh bother.
truth forever
on the scaffold,
wrong forever
on the throne.
yet the scaffold
sways the future,
and behind
the dim unknown,
standeth God
within the shadow,
keeping watch,
above His own.
| verse of the day
| beautiful, i just want you to know, you are my favourite girls
not what my hands have done
can save my guilty soul
not what my toiling flesh has borne
can make my spirit whole
not what i feel or do
can give me peace with God
not all my prayers & sighs & tears
can bear my awful load
Your work alone, O Christ
can ease this weight of sin
Your blood alone, O Lamb of God
can give me peace within
Your love to me, O God
not mine, O Lord, to thee
can rid me of this dark unrest
& set my spirit free
Your grace alone, O God
to me can pardon speak
Your power alone, O Son of God
can this sore bondage break
no other work, save thine
no other blood will do
no strength, save that which is divine
can bear me safely through
i bless the Christ of God
i rest on love divine & with unfaltering lip & heart
i call this Saviour mine
His cross dispels each doubt
i bury in His tomb
each thought of unbelief & fear
each lingering shade of gloom
i praise the God of grace
i trust His truth & might
He calls me His, i call Him mine
my God, my joy, me light
'tis He who saveth me
& freely pardon gives
i love because He loveth me
i live because He lives (:
