i had an enjoyable dinner just now! nothing fanciful. it's just hokkien mee with hanwei at the coffee shop near her house. who would think that i totally totally enjoyed a simple dinner like that :)
after that i went to her house for the first time and she me hanwan had a crackling good time watching RUI EN's 9 o'clock show together, with tonnes of comments. i totally enjoyed that too :)
i really like it alot when i can hang out with friends without stress, without having to say no to the things that i do not want to do. without worrying about their reactions, worrying about how to put it across, worrying yet trying not to show it.
i really like it alot when i can hang out with friends without having to leave them. without having to say bye when they move on to pubs, to smoke, to drink.
how do i say "no i won't go drinking with you, but i really hope to hear you talk about your things." "i can't meet for dinner because i've Bible study today but it doesn't mean that i don't care about you."
nevertheless, the guilty finger also points at me: i really message my friends very little. i don't pick up calls. i don't really reply messages either. when i'm free, i also rather stay at home. very terrible, ching mei yun. seriously gotta change!
i pray i pray i pray that i will be better in handling friendships i cherish. (it has already been 6 years) i pray that my friends will accept me the way i am now. and i pray that i will get to spend time with the friends i care about. just like today.
truth forever
on the scaffold,
wrong forever
on the throne.
yet the scaffold
sways the future,
and behind
the dim unknown,
standeth God
within the shadow,
keeping watch,
above His own.
| verse of the day
| beautiful, i just want you to know, you are my favourite girls
not what my hands have done
can save my guilty soul
not what my toiling flesh has borne
can make my spirit whole
not what i feel or do
can give me peace with God
not all my prayers & sighs & tears
can bear my awful load
Your work alone, O Christ
can ease this weight of sin
Your blood alone, O Lamb of God
can give me peace within
Your love to me, O God
not mine, O Lord, to thee
can rid me of this dark unrest
& set my spirit free
Your grace alone, O God
to me can pardon speak
Your power alone, O Son of God
can this sore bondage break
no other work, save thine
no other blood will do
no strength, save that which is divine
can bear me safely through
i bless the Christ of God
i rest on love divine & with unfaltering lip & heart
i call this Saviour mine
His cross dispels each doubt
i bury in His tomb
each thought of unbelief & fear
each lingering shade of gloom
i praise the God of grace
i trust His truth & might
He calls me His, i call Him mine
my God, my joy, me light
'tis He who saveth me
& freely pardon gives
i love because He loveth me
i live because He lives (:
lee meiyan (:
cindy chua (:
angela ow (:
ashley lim (:
eunice ng
yang jingfang
melissa ong
lam shenlin
tan shuyan
geraldine tan
sarah-ann khoo
tay jiaying
