waited, dreamt of and feared.
today is the day
when my life is about to whirl inta a palette of frantic mess.
how am i going to cope.
one bad news
pulls alongside many others.
im lost when all's gone.
much as i dont want to,
i broke those hearts.
sorry mommy and daddy, i do.,love uall.
i hate the depressing shit just one piece of paper brings.
kills me.
@ 12:35:00 AM
im finally online aft this bloody long week
cos my comp was DOWN DOWN DOWN DOwn down.
yup kaes yall got the idea.
went out wif my mom jus now and we fetched home some pretty good bargains
now i have a lcd scanner fax printer plus photocopy machine all new n smelling plastics.
ONE WEEK PLUS not bloggin now i feel funny mans!
how to blog already,
i was........
urghs..
i was.. ayeeeeeeeeeeeee!
kaos.
i start again, i was
no no no.
i went to the
no
WHAT THE HELL
again,
whatever. il list then.
- worked fer 3 days at expo giving out tiny fliers at this freezing electronics exhibition. pay was 8.50 per hour and we've yet ta receive it so hell. no eyecandies ta help pass time. im gonna die. those are most probably gonna be my new classmates next yr, tt's if, things allow tt to happen. confusing? ferget it.
- zouked on the second night of work wif ade junz lala cind char mar thane rob wei. crowd was reasonably good, music was bad but all fun stays despite tt. keiji is one protective person ta have around at parties where guys try sneaking up ta have a good slime and then cuss and thrust when got shoved away, denying all that initial bastardy intentions. c'mon, we SO believe u. cabbed down ta embassy at 3plus (plus) only to find an empty club wif bloody good music. man, move those speakers ta zouk and all's perfect! slept over at thane's haunted residence. eng lock mansion, how does tt sound? thk gdness MELV&victor stayed wif us girls it's pretty touchg. (as usual!)
- third day of work : bad. when u were clubbg til 5 e previous night with a damn flu+fever. wadya thk?
- went fer a series of grads. sn grad, junz's grad, fang's grad, and yan's grad is coming up. emotions provoking events whereby i know, mine will never come.
- junz's grad was terrible. not the grad lars. junz looked great, toon, toonc, jacq, lun all did. robin won prom king lars grin on dude~ congrats (: the aftermath lars. mambo night at zouk was shelved mans im still sour abt it. cind mar eu went off 1st & ended up at cb. spkg of which, MELVYN YEO WERE YOU THE ONE WHO TOLD ME TT THERE WAS CHINA WHITE! the guys wer nooowherrre ta be found. cels&cand went home. left me junz kangs ash&bf at embassy kaes. FREE ENTRY sounds nice right but it was compulsory ta buy a drink per person. plain COKE was a bloody 10 bucks. shooo!
- fer the first time in my life, I KAYAKED. -looks at that particular bashable company- dont be too proud!
some other nonimpt thgs:
- ive no phone! AND wallet. aye, left it in mandarin and it's with -looks at junz- now. my phone CRACKED. the screen cracked, top three rows are covered by blue-ish lcd liquid or sth worse? =/ replyg has become a chore. so is pickg up calls without knowg who's e caller.
- i love hotels now, with or without stars, ESPECIALLY RITZ CARLTON. yan fang kang will agree.
- i hate embassy. hate normaldays-zouk.
- brownhaired, losing quantity day by day (disgustg side effects of kolestone).
- BROKE.
- and hate guys. they upset my friends too much. not a very funny thing when three close ones gets jaded simultaneously. not very funny. i wish they'll jus disappear. (MELVYN YEO the number one gd guy on earth plus 3 more other rare discoveries, UALL ARE NOT INCLUDED.)
kaes. my dad's lk beside me now staring at the screen askg why are the words so small.
ciaos~
truth forever
on the scaffold,
wrong forever
on the throne.
yet the scaffold
sways the future,
and behind
the dim unknown,
standeth God
within the shadow,
keeping watch,
above His own.
| verse of the day
| beautiful, i just want you to know, you are my favourite girls
not what my hands have done
can save my guilty soul
not what my toiling flesh has borne
can make my spirit whole
not what i feel or do
can give me peace with God
not all my prayers & sighs & tears
can bear my awful load
Your work alone, O Christ
can ease this weight of sin
Your blood alone, O Lamb of God
can give me peace within
Your love to me, O God
not mine, O Lord, to thee
can rid me of this dark unrest
& set my spirit free
Your grace alone, O God
to me can pardon speak
Your power alone, O Son of God
can this sore bondage break
no other work, save thine
no other blood will do
no strength, save that which is divine
can bear me safely through
i bless the Christ of God
i rest on love divine & with unfaltering lip & heart
i call this Saviour mine
His cross dispels each doubt
i bury in His tomb
each thought of unbelief & fear
each lingering shade of gloom
i praise the God of grace
i trust His truth & might
He calls me His, i call Him mine
my God, my joy, me light
'tis He who saveth me
& freely pardon gives
i love because He loveth me
i live because He lives (:
